1 September 2009 - Rainy Day ...

一边听着爱尔兰另类歌手歌手西尼德.奥康娜演唱的a> perfect> indian，一边看着这篇文章　一一对照自己，感觉确实很准，觉得好象什么都是命运的安排。>> 　　如果你是天秤座的人你肯定会看完它，如果不是，请你听完这> 首歌再走吧^^> 　　天平座的爱情>> 　　　　天平在爱情方面是一个为别人而活的星座。天平的被动更是让很多天平们错过了自己的真爱。天平不懂得拒绝，天平面对一个自己明明不喜欢的人，只要那 人能主动积极一点，那天平是不会拒绝的，因为天平觉得拒绝会伤害你。为了不伤害你，天平只有牺牲自己。或者，天平会为你对他哪怕是一句关心的话而感动，就 为了感谢你这句关心的话而和你在一起，因为天平永远都是追求平衡的，他认为你付出了哪怕是一句关心的话他就应该回报你，而不是真的因为爱你才和你在一 起。(感动不等于爱)而且天平将'责任'二字看得太重，却又未认识到'责任'的真正精髓所在，以至于用了一种对自己极其残酷的方式给'责任'下着定义。天 平不爱对方，却要坚持对对方不离不弃。这是一个力求公平的天平的善良抉择，更是一个近乎愚蠢的抉择。这是天平的悲哀。只能说天平懂得负责任，却真的不理解 '责任'。可是懂得负责也变成了一种错误吗？天平认为责任比爱情重要，却未想过幸福也同样重要。你完全有理由责备天平，但是在你责备天平的同时可曾想过其 实最可悲的正是天平。天平的要求真的不高，只是需要有人理解自己而已。但是，谁又能理解天平呢？> 　　　　>>　　　　还有一点，天平在爱情方面> 确实是比较优柔寡断犹豫不决，这点必须承认。但是天平为什么会这样？因为天平想的事很多想的很远，天平觉得如果要爱一个人就要让对方快乐。这里说的'快乐 '包括很多，比如说有没有足够的经济能力来维持平时和你在一起时的花销，能不能让你每天都开心，自己的朋友和父母会接受你吗？你的父母朋友能接受自己吗？ 甚至可能会想到结婚以后你们孩子的模样漂亮吗？。。。。。等等，还有许多问题！你说天平能不犹豫吗？天平是出了名的12个星座最懒的，如果不是因为爱你天 平根本懒的考虑那么多！如果天平一旦确定你就是他深爱的人并且确定了你们的恋爱关系以后，那么这时候天平追求完美的一面就展现出来了。> 　　　　>> 　　　　这时的天平满脑子就是想如何做到最好> 让你觉得自己是世界上最幸福的人。和天平恋爱过的人应该都知道这一点吧，刚和天平恋爱时的感觉简直太完美了，一些只有在电影和小说里面出现的情景会经常出 现在你们身上，你会感觉现在的你真的就是世界上最幸福的人。这时的天平只要每天能看到深爱的人开心一笑就算付出在大的代价也愿意！由于刚恋爱时的天平表现 的太完美了，以至于对方已经习惯了天平的这种完美表现，这在对方的心理已经是对天平的一种标准，所以天平只要稍稍表现的不够以前好，对方就会不习惯，就会 觉得天平不爱她了！可是，这个世界上谁也不可能永远都做的这么好，天平也不能，虽然这时天平依然深爱着对方！对方的抱怨让天平觉得自己很委屈，自己付出了 那么多对方却还不满足，还说自己不够好，所以天平就会觉得自己的付出不值得，到最后当然就只剩下分手！> 　　　　>> 　　　　在这里给所有天平朋友一个忠告，细水常流，平平淡淡才是真，> 不可能每一天都是完美的！烟花确实绚烂，但是注定短暂！这里在特别说一下天平男。天平男花心吗？也许吧。但是所谓天平男的花心又和其他人不同，最原则性的 不同在于天平男的花心跟爱情本身不关。所谓天平男的花心应该理解为是一种博爱。天平男认为世界上一切事物都是美好的，而女人更是这个美丽世界中的一个个艺 术品。所以女人是要用来好好呵护的，与爱无关！这是天平男一种怜香惜玉的本质。这种本质是天平与生俱来的，是根深蒂固的。天平真正意义上爱一个人时是和那 种怜香惜玉的爱是有本质上的区别的。天平真正爱上一个人时，天平在心中会把爱人奉为自己的女神，不仅有爱，更多的是一种尊敬甚至崇拜！反过来说，天平面对 自己真正深爱的人时内心会有那么一点小小的自卑。这里的自卑不是平时大家所说的因某种缺陷自卑，这种自卑是相对于'完美'二字来说的。大家也许会怀疑，自 信又自恋的天平也会自卑？是的，因为天平面对爱人的时候总希望自己做到完美，但是天平不明白完美只是一种传说一种境界，世界上没有人是完美的，天平也不 能，所以这时天平就会产生自卑感。要求完美的天平对自己的不完美很不满意，觉得自己配不上心爱的人，所以很多天平宁愿选择放弃(其实天平在对方心目中天平 已经很好了，只是当天平深爱一个人时鲜前昱＝羌？。但是放弃不等于不爱。天平对自己深爱的人是一辈子都不会忘的。放弃对天平来说另一种爱，天平会永远把 深爱的人深深埋在心里的某个角落默默的为对方祈祷祝福！天平不是因为寂寞才会爱上一个人，天平是因为爱上一个人才寂寞！　　>> 　　　　天平对于自己内心真正的想法很少> 对人倾诉，因为天平深知沉默才能坚强。所以，除了天平自己之外没有人能真正了解天平，除非你来生有幸作为一个天平时用生命来体会一次。。。。。。不管是谁 对谁错，一切的过错都由天平背负着，任由人们误会，任由人们无端的指责甚至漫骂，天平只是轻描淡写的一笑而过，在人前永远保持着优雅的微笑。一切是命中注 定，无需多言，我们即然是天秤，太懂得去分析事情的轻与重，善与恶，真与假了。所以说对于本身也是一种负罪吧。因为都看透了。对于真不真心，懂的人自然了 解，不懂的人也不想再多说，因为我们是天秤，骄傲的天平！传说中有位骑士名叫天平，英俊，迷人，优雅，高贵。。。。。。黑夜中，西风吹过;白马上，骑士仰 望星空;手中有剑，心中有爱，骑士正在为他心爱的人祈祷平安幸福！夜，还是那么黑。路，还有那么远。人，还那么寂寞！拍拍身上的灰尘，振作疲惫的精神，抚 平疼痛的伤口，远方也许尽是坎坷路，骑士却仍然微笑着上路了---> 虽然心碎了无痕，依旧> 白马啸西风！> 　　　　>> 　　　　关于天平的友情和人际关系:>> 　　　　'朋友'二字对于天平有多重要是一般人不能理解的。这么说吧，天平把友情看的重要。因为天平是一个特别害怕孤独的星座，天平不会享受孤独。每个天 平都有轻微的抑郁症，孤独就是诱发天平抑郁症的罪魁祸首！而抑郁症的最大特点就是厌世，这绝不是危言耸听，孤独就是能让天平产生厌世的感觉。天平是活在人 群中的人，只有在人群中天平才能找到自我的位置发挥自我的价值。所以天平总是希望自己的朋友多些在多些。对于自己不喜欢的人，天平虽不愿把他当做朋友但还 是希望对方能把自己当成朋友，但凡是天平认识的人天平绝不会轻易得罪。为了维持这种和谐的关系，天平不的不圆滑一点虚伪一点，见人说人话见鬼说鬼话。其实 天平真的很累的。绝大多数的时候，天平的朋友受到伤害和委屈了，天平总是第一时间出现在朋友旁边安慰和关心朋友，给朋友以最大的鼓励，但是当天平受伤时却 很少得到这样的待遇。换句话说，天平的朋友看上去虽然很多，但是知心朋友却很少，能了解天平内心的更始微乎其微。天平对每个朋友都很好，而且都是一样的 好，以至于大家都不知道天平对谁是真心真意对谁是虚情假意。天平一生都致力于创造一个自己心目中理想的和谐的美丽新世界，在那个世界中没有明争暗斗，没有 尔虞我诈，大家都是好朋友，所有人都互相关心，互相照顾。总之，天平对朋友是最无私的，宁愿天下人负我，我不负天下人是天平对于与朋友关系的最好的一句话 概括。如果你有朋友是天平的话，那么你应该感到幸运！

5 May 2009 - Life..

Hi people.. Its me again.. nowadays, feel want to blog .. Why? I also dont noe.. 5 May, its really a bad day for me.. Hahaha.. Firstly, i argue with my family.. Secondly.. I piss off my friends.. Thirdly.. I make someone sad.. ANd lastly, i make someone angry.. Woot.. What happen? I will like to tell u, bcoz i'm still immatured person that i make ppl angry around me.. Hah !! How pro am i .. Now people are leaving me, this is great coz i really deserve it. Even writing this blog, i still feel myself are being control.. What i wrote, just make people feel frustrated.. Or perhaps causing trouble for them.. Sam, when u're going to wake up?? And when u will stop whinning like a baby at here? Lmao. Myself also dont noe, What do my life lack of? WOot, i also dont noe. its very childish for whinnig over here but i guess this is what BLOG for, Am i right? Sorry People, I dont wan to say this but its true. I'm may a gud friend but i'm not going to hold my emotional from either 1 of u when i'm piss off. Ok? Or maybe I'm just a loser. yeah i think myself that too! A sore loser. yet, i'm proud to be that. What the fuck man, I'm just born to be a loser. HAHAHAHA, Not funny rite? What have u done in ur life which will really make u proud of it. I guess everyone of u people sure got sumthing rite, but tell u what, I done nth that make myself proud or my family or any people around me. For family, i'm just their burden. For friend, just a entertainment tool or sumthing else. Confident? Fuck Off Man, what the fuck is this confident. My confident always broke by someone else and what fo if i have it? got what fucking use? yeah i'm rude so what, Its my life I love to be like this, beh song? Siam la. Shit, Shitty Life Fucking Life and Rubbish LIFE !!!!!!

4 May 2009 - It's May.. So fast.

This is the picture that we took at CHilis!! Yummy, Look at Desy burger, woot !!
Aiyo.. So fast may jor.. I hate this month coming.. WHy?? Coz i'm going to sit for my final exam.. Man, so freaking boring and force to study now.. Sigh !! Lol anyway.. Just go out with Desy and Joan + Madeline yesterday at Mid Valley.. I reach there by 9.20pm but then they still at the curve Lol.. So, untill 10pm they only arrive MV.. In Between that time i was sms with my lil pretty girl (LOL), thanks Mun Mun ! And i dont nid to be bored. After ward we went to Chilis.. (my Favourite !) but i didnt take order for food since i adi have my dinner at homee.. Diet ma... Haha keep fit liao.. if not really jadi fei lou.. ( i'm a fei lou adi) Hahaha.. After 20 min, they were discussing to go clubbing.. but i really feel tired ( 2 May i never sleep for whole day coz i drink the freaking mocha!!) So.. i rejected.. and i noe Madeline is quiet piss off ><>

30 April 2009 - Hell Lol. My BLog has Been "fat mou"

Ish, this is how i looks like recently. I noe i got a stupid face but doesnt look cute?! xD
Hello People, how are you guys going?? Haha, Sorry i dont blog for so long rofl coz I really got nth to share about. Is actually there is lot of happening between February to April.. A lot of story.. Well, what pass is pass so I dont really care about it now. First of all i will like to say congratulation to Des & Joan for them recover their relationship, Haha here to wish both of u Hug each other forever kayss. And someone else, u also gambatteh for ur life kay.. Hehe, I noe u can do it, anything nid help just give me call.. Simple and Nice, isn't? Lol. And.. my beloved granddot dont b sad adi kayy~ Grandpa always with ya, Muax!! <3>

20 February 2009 - Sunny Day. Blogging at Library

Hurrah !! Its been a while that i didn't blog ya.. Nth much in my holiday.. Went to china along with my best buddy.. And a lonely Valentine's Day.. But alot of problems are happening recently.. What it is? About my best buddy .. What happen? Go ask him.. Lol.. Anyway, i'm back to single since i break with my gf already 3 months ? Well .. long story huh .. Get to know more pls ask me personally eh.. Hehehe.. Just here to wish 2 of my friends will get a better life than last time without "something" ... OK? I think i will stop here because i'm writting this blog at my college libray so ... Many ppl looking on it .. Paiseh la.. Hahaha.. Good bye chaw guys .. Miss u people alot !!! Muax.. xD

12 January 2009 - Confusing..

Again.. Its been a while since my last post.. 10 January 2009 .. I will never forget that day.. The day which i have end up with my first girl friends .. I feel so empty .. Hearts are pain in deep.. When i say the word .. "我們分手吧.." I drop my tears .. I do really love her .. But.. I can't give her anything .. And.. I really can't stand for the arguement anymore.. There must be3 - 4 times arguement in a month.. And i start thinking.. Isn't couple shud be happy? Why am i so sad?.. I noe its common but this is too often .. I really cant hold my emotional anymore ... Now.. we end up in break.. She call me a liar.. What i promised to her.. I cant reveal it .. But.. Do u reveal the promise to me?... Do u? .. Do u care how my feeling?.. Do u noe u're not the only one who nid to be accompany?.. Do u noe?? .. No .. u don't .. She said everything i told her was a lie .. "騙子".. This word.. Hurt me so much ... I got nth to say... What i can said is.. Maybe u feel i'm lying you.. but the true is .. My love for you is not a lie ... U believe it or not .. Up to u .. Loves .. Its really miserable ... Anyway.. I wish you can find a guy who woun't lie to u .. Good bye.. Wendy .. U're always in my heart...

12 November 2008 - Sorry . . .

My Life Is Just Black And White.. I just want a simple life ..

Its been a while.. i have left this blog for blank .. But todays feel like writing blog ya.. As ya all know .. I've a girl friend who elder than me 4 years... My parents.. are not really happy with it .. So to my friends ask me to think again .. I really don't know what to do .. I'm also afraid that myself can't take care of her that long .. Will I last long with her even she look old .. I don't know .. Sigh .. Should I let it go .. Or keep going?.. I don't know .. Nowadays i really having bad mood .. Everything are not going really well .. Friends argue with me .. Family .. Sigh .. I really don't know what to do man .. Sometime I do really want to stop playing games.. But I just can't.. Just like a smoker .. Is hard to stop smoking .. Right?.. Anyways.. I'm still glad I've a my best friends with me .. And also his ex-girl friends.. Thank you .. Is a waste that both of you are end up in break ... Really hope to see both of you stay together again..And also.. Thanks Mun Mun for helping me alot.. You can find a better person than me .. I'm not good enough for you.. I wish someday you can have a really happy smile on your face .. :) And ofcause.. I still very miss my SMKTE friends.. I never forget you all .. No worries.. I'm person who very care about friends.. Haha.. K .. I will stop here today.. Thanks for the visiting ..